agh
I am such a fucking little girl. i have the hugest crush on someone who is too good for me and it makes me feel ugly and i am insecure about evetything right now. Not the time to even be thinking about this stuff. I can’t even figure out how I ever landed an attractive man with the way I am acting. I am so frustrated with myself but I can’t stop my cheeks from flushing and my mind from straying. Dumb. Tomorrow will be a nice distraction and then I need to start focusing on school. I just hate these games. Sometimes I love the thought of taking it slow and sneaking around and playing coy but right now, I wish it was all just out there so it could be in the open so we can move forward or I can stop trying. Sigh.
